My husband is away for the weekend. Not a bad thing, I encouraged him to go. His best friend is getting married and I can't travel at the moment, so he needed to go by himself. I am so glad we were in a position for him to do this.

However, this left me with a 2 year old and an empty house for three days. Being 8 months pregnant I have had some small troubles sleeping lately and so I shipped my little one off to her grandparents (thank you SO MUCH Nana-Grams and Papa) and got to sleep for 12 hours last night. I got some much needed me time and I spoiled myself with a peppermint stick milkshake. YUM!

I picked Kati up before naptime, and predictably, she fell asleep on the ride home, so she didn't nap until 3 ish. I slept fine! At four she wakes me up (via baby monitor) because she is crying. Ok, I will just go get her up, its late enough and then I can get the house picked up and some dishes done before making us a quick dinner.

She wants to snuggle. She curls up on my lap and promptly settles contentedly, despite Baby Brother kicking her (and me) in the ribs. I shift and wiggle, trying to gauge wether she is awake or not. Apparently not. So I lay her down and snuggle with her as she drifts farther and farther into dreamland. Shoot, I think to myself, I was going to put away the stuff from the baby shower and do some dishes. I wanted to get the house picked up and vacuumed, even the playroom before I go to bed. My attitude was not good.

Then I realized, I am snuggling, holding my precious daughter, who I love more than life itself, and I am trying to find a way out. Why? Why would I dream of giving up this moment. Especially since it will probably be one of the last before Brother shows up, and these moments are harder to have. Why would I trade a half hour of snuggle time for a half hour of housework? My child is so important, and so sweet, and all she wants most in the world right now is to snuggle next to me and dream. This is why I have dreamed of being someone's Mommy. This is why I wanted the life that I have. This is my whole reason for staying home with her, and learning what makes this precious life is all about.

From the time I was a young girl I always wanted to be a Mommy. It was what I said when everyone asked what I wanted to be when I grew up, and amazingly, it is still absolutely true. I am sure I could have had the drive to have a career, but my hearts passion has always been for mommyhood, and today I remembered why.