I sit here knowing that I need to pack for an overnight. Not for me, but for my precious little girl. I have been looking forward to her staying with the in-laws for weeks, but now that the day is upon me I am nervous. I have never left her with anyone before. Sure she has stayed with Anndrea while I work, and with the Grandparents while I run errands and go out with my hubby, but the first overnight is getting to me. What if she cries all night? What if she needs me and I am not there? What if she thinks I have abandoned her? It is very hard for me to think about. I want my girl to grow up knowing that she is loved. I want her to know that I am always there for her. But at the same time I sometimes need a good nights sleep, and maybe, just maybe, a night "off". She is still so little. I wonder what my mother's heart should be feeling. I know, in my head, that she will be fine. One night with Nana won't hurt her. She may even enjoy herself. It is me. All me, and my heart. I wonder and worry, and fret. I know that is not being very trusting, but she is my baby.

Lord grant me peace to leave my child in Your care. Give me the strength to enjoy myself, even as I worry. Let me take comfort in you! Bless my darling baby, and keep her safe.